In a recent season of my life, I have devalued myself and my worth. I have been searching for temporal love and satisfaction for various needs. Needless to say, this search has left me weary and broken. Constantly questioning am I good enough, or what God’s plans for me are. I have let myself spiral down a path of self destruction. I let men take advantage of me and use me for their own selfish gain, and sadly, mine as well. During this time in my life, I did not care what happened because I ultimately did not care about myself nor the God I served.
The thing is though, I knew the decisions I made were wrong, but I still chose to do them anyway. I chose to put my needs at the forefront. I chose to let a man gain the benefits of what should be for my husband, and lose myself in the process. I am constantly seeking the approval of man and what he believes. Do they think I’m pretty, smart, a good potential wife, a good person, etc. The list could go on and on. The truth is, I do not have a good view of myself or who God is. I would rather settle for less, just to satisfy my current needs. I will spend money I don’t have, do the things I normally wouldn’t do, all just to satisfy man. Yet, I would never do those things if it were for God or myself.
God satisfies every single one of my needs and desires. God loves me more than I could ever love myself. God sees my worth and value even at my worst. God fixes the broken and makes the weary strong. God does not want me to have this life. He desires me to live an even greater life, yet I still choose to do my own thing. I am a complete and utter sinner in need of a savior. I am lost and looking for guidance. I am confused and in need of wisdom. Friends I have done so many wrong things, that I am not proud of, but the fact of the matter is, God still loves me anyways. The things I do just to satisfy a man, who doesn’t love nor respect me, I should do 110% more with God. God chose us over 2,000 years ago when he died on the cross. He chose us then and he still chooses us now. If he can give up his own life to save us, how much more should we die to ourselves and choose him.
13 As for us, we can’t help but thank God for you, dear brothers and sisters loved by the Lord. We are always thankful that God chose you to be among the first to experience salvation—a salvation that came through the Spirit who makes you holy and through your belief in the truth.
2 Thessalonians 2:13 NLT
Friends, choose God. Don’t choose man or even yourself because ultimately you will end up disappointed. He loved us first and will continue to love even after our last breath. Don’t devalue yourself or the Lord because of people pleasing, temporal satisfaction, or whatever the case may be. You are holy and worthy – always remember that!
16 Now may our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal comfort and a wonderful hope, 17 comfort you and strengthen you in every good thing you do and say.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17 NLT
Stay blessed!
– Alicia Xo
Enchanted Women Ministries 
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