Public Growth

As some of you may have noticed, Enchanted Women is an intimate aspect of who I am. I bear my heart out into these posts and display it for the entire world to see. Some information might be seen as “too public,” which I should be aware of due to future employment opportunities or because of the possible negativity associated with it. Whatever the case may be, in light of these concerns, I wanted to clarify a few things.

First and foremost, I choose to be this honest and vulnerable, not because I am seeking attention or sympathy, but because I know there is someone else out there who feels how I am feeling. The world is already so fixated on perfection that we would rather lie or put on a facade about who we truly are and/or how we feel. Enchanted Women was inspired to encourage women, specifically young women, to accept who they fully are regardless if it’s positive or not. Throughout my life, I constantly compared myself to other women and christians. I never measured up. I was never enough. I was never enough for myself, for others or for God. I looked at myself as a constant disappointment. Many young women feel this way, and that is because the world they live in forces that ideology down their throats. There is always something that can be fixed or changed. The constant theme of perfection is engraved in most women’s hearts and it is hard to find something genuine and real in a world of lies. God gave me this vision when I was fifteen to share my hardships and struggles with other women with hopes to inspire them that they are not alone and may one day turn to Christ. That is the ultimate goal of this blog. Not to exalt myself, but to exalt Christ through the testimonies of my life.

Secondly, I need public growth and accountability. Looking back through my older posts is such an encouragement to me. It shows me greatly the nature of my heart and the wisdom God has instilled in me even when I didn’t realize it. Seeing those changes throughout my life, displays my public growth and downfalls which in turn gives me accountability. The main person who constantly asks about my page is my mom. She has seen me grow, stumble and everything in between. She knows aspects of my heart and wishes to see it flourish. With Enchanted Women, she and everyone else can see aspects of my heart and help keep me accountable towards working on tightening and strengthening my heart and my relationship with the Lord.

Lastly, if I want to be a true follower of Christ then I must be bold in my faith. All of my posts so far have come from the obedience in trusting in the Holy Spirit within me because he put it in my heart to write it. Now that doesn’t mean whenever the Holy Spirt says “write,” I do it. No. It doesn’t always work like that. I am stubborn, disobedient and selfish, so sometimes the Lord is constantly having to put it in my heart until I actually do it. Believe me, I know how hard it is to listen to God. But, when I do, he’s always telling me to be bold in my faith; in other words, step out of my comfort zone. Enchanted Women is my small way of being bold for the gospel. However, I have a hard time sharing that I am a Christian because of fear of hypocrisy (well until about a week ago). Fear of rejection. Fear of persecution. Fear of losing control. But the Lord, our God, is an even greater fear. As followers of Christ, we need to fear God, more than man because at the end of the day it’s not man you’ll have to face at judgement day, but God.

Enchanted Women in essence is my public diary that I am not intimidated to share. For if you can’t love or accept the real me for who I am and what I represent, then I didn’t need you in my life in the first place. I am not worried about the concerns, for I knew that when I began this journey at fifteen. It may have taken me six years to fully accept it and be at peace with it, but I am now on this powerful and loving journey. My hopes are to reach as many young women as I can in order to share the love and compassion that Christ has shared and graced upon me.

Stay blessed,

Alicia Xo